:: nenu ::

:: Tuesday, May 06, 2003 ::

happiness and sadness
how do i see the difference

a wave of emotion hits me
and washes away my memory
before i try to see what caused it

and back to the deepened shallow feelings





:: moon 8:32 PM [+] ::
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emani raayanu.. ninnu emani pogadanu...
ennallayindi ninnu choosi... nee chentha visraminchi

okkokka ooha, cheppaleni bhaavalaki janmanisthunte
nuvvu tanayyi, tanu nuvvayyi, nannu nenuga lekunda chesthunnave...

malle puvva.. nuvuu evari varaala mootavo...
vennela muthyamga... ninnu evaru naa munduncharo

malle puvva... nuvvu evari oohala chitranivo..
nuvu andavani.. taaralani varinchina jabilli... ninnu thana paatalo undanivvaledu

nenu paadathanu .. neekosam...

chandamaama raave.. jaabilli raave..
kondekki raave.. . malle poolu theeve...


:: moon 12:40 AM [+] ::
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:: moon 3:25 PM [+] ::
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A beautiful song makes sense to me after a long time... some times i see its impact instantaneously and sometimes it shows its beauty in enormous ways thoughtout my lifetime...

one such song is by sree seetharamasastry... which i tried to translate word to word , thereby unfortunately loosing its poetic flow.

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telugu
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neelaakaasam lo harivillu choopinchava nalla nallani meghalu
bangaru rangula kalalu choopinchava.. nadireyi lo neeli kallu..

urume vintu uliki paduthu unte chiguru thodigedela pasidi pantachenu
merupe vintu murisipothu unte manasu chesthundira nemali narthanaalu

kammuku vachhe kaala raathiri ante maro sooryodayaaniki choolaalanta
alupanipinche kalathalemiti ante nijam kaaboyee oohala baruvenanta..

more to come.....

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english
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Wont the darkest clouds show the beautiful rainbow in the blue sky!
wont the beautiful blue eyes show golden dreams in the deep night...

will the field ever grow prosperously.. if it is afraid of the sound of thunder...
see the majestic lightning.. and your heart will do the dance of the peacock..

the invading dark night is concieving (is pregnant with) tomorrow's bright sunlight...
those thoughts that are wearing you down.. are nothing but the wieght of your dreams that are going to become true...


more to come.....




:: moon 3:20 PM [+] ::
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i am a fool.. i am a fool... i am a fool...





:: moon 12:42 AM [+] ::
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come back to me.........

I was passing by the path,knowing not where i want to go. A tree looked at me and said.."where are you my friend.. where did you go why did you stop writing about me.. did you fall in love with a beautiful girl?". "Love?" i said, "i do not know what love is and i am no bard to write about you." "so were you behind a beautiful girl?" "yes, i was .. but i was not behind.. i want to just be with her" "Look at yourself... you once wanted to be with me..its the same thing. you will leave her for something else." "I think i already left her." "what for this time?" " i do not know...i dont have an answer.. i have an emptiness in me that cannot be filled, i felt she would be filling it, but i understood she was searching for her own soul.. and could not fill mine. i may never find what i want" "then please come backto me , i want you.." "no.. i dont want to come back.. i do not know what love is.. and i do not how to be with you..so troubled i am , i cannot think of anything else other than laughing at it. i am happy , happy that i am sad, i am sad.. sad that i am happy. i am lonely, i am lonely, so lonely that i cannot hear myself. the me has left me, may never come back" " was it ever there?" the tree asked. "i do not know..." . "Then love me.. come back to me..you will not be lonely, i will be there for you." "Why do you want me to be with you?" "I like the way you talk about me.. i like the way you want to write about me.." "You are selfish too", i said. " Oh, why do you think you write about me?", the tree asked. "I write because i do not want my thoughts about you to go away.. and i dont this its love.." "How can you say so , when you say you dont know what love is."
:: moon 2:16 PM [+] ::
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vennello yeekantham.....

solitude in moonlight

the one who longs for solitude in moonlight is foolish.
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:: moon 12:31 AM [+] ::
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